Sunday, May 13, 2012
I guess it's not that I don't want to talk to you. I myself do not even know what is going on in my life. I don't know how to explain to you and I really cannot be bothered to help you understand what I am currently going thru. My life now is a big question mark and this thing that is on-going with him isn't helping at all that much I am sure. I wanna let my feelings be known but I am afraid of the consequences. To say that he doesn't know my feeling. That much I wouldn't believe. He would have had at least a little idea of my feelings. Well, isn't he a Mr "know-it-all", knowing what people are thinking what people are feeling from the eyes. If he knew, why isn't he pushing me away but instead of encouraging all these feelings.10:44 PM
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Wednesday, February 23, 2011
I'll be lying if I say I dun miss u because I miss u a lot.2:01 AM
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Wednesday, December 01, 2010
I am sorry. How do I make ur anger go away? You ask me not to be insecure, but you know I can't so many things happened in my life that I guess makes me feel this way. You may have reasons for saying some things but end of the day, the meaning comes to me in a different way because you said it while u are still angry. You think I fa pi qi but i am not. I really am not. But I dunno how to explain to you to make you understand. It's not I get angry also. I just feel exasperated that you are angry especially when I dunno why. I always have this foreboding that something is coming my way to make me feel even worse and you know what? It did. I doubt you'll see this anyway but can our relationship withstand this difference between you and me? I dunno. I hope it does but I don't wanna hope too much cos it just brings about too much pain. I can be happy and live life happily but there is no way what happened in the past can be so easily erased. It's the big scar in my heart that doesn't seem to disappear.10:25 PM
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Friday, April 23, 2010
Maybe this is too soon for both of us. So whatever. I just hope you're fine. Seeing you like this I dunno how to help u. All I can do is listen to u and talk rubbish. Just hope I am not making things worse for u. Just wish I knew the right words to say, right things to do. Relationships should never be strained due to what is being said to each other. Words especially when there is anger involved always hurts. I want to help you take away the hurt even if it was a little. Let me help u will you?11:51 AM
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Tuesday, March 09, 2010
I am a failure in life.9:20 PM
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Thursday, May 01, 2008
the loneliness that I am suppose to have tamed starts to lash out without me being able to do anything.10:40 PM
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Sunday, April 06, 2008
Most people are other people. Their thoughts are someone else's opinions, their lives a mimicry, their passions a quotation. ~Oscar Wilde~12:08 AM
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